OH my gosh, thank you SO MUCH Alffe!!!!

I've spend the last couple of hours:

vacuuming

feeding myself

ruminating over and over ... and actually coming up with some positive feelings about how things happen for a reason.... another opportunity will present itself... ... and when the negative thoughts come in... I feel them and analyze them ... my guts roll a bit but I'm handling it...

called my x-boss and asked that she please mail my last check as she'd offered (when I left I told her I'd be fine to pick it up on Monday but more thought made me realize it wouldn't be a good idea to go back there )
.........
Alffe! You and I and so many others here have been through so much with together!
I love how good you are for me... you are the very definition of FRIEND!