i think branchy is dangerous when you aren't grounded. it takes you places you may not be able to deal with. tasks can keep you grounded. alcohol can really get you branchy and can create crashes. but it feels so good.
i don't even know if you enjoy the actual work you are doing? I don't even know how much stress is involved with the commuting. I don't know if your parents act as semi grounders for you. I don't know if you are enjoying any of the money you are making. Is there anybody at work you are enjoying?
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