hi Imad,
This is beaurifully worded and challenges my comprenhension of to what degree it is intended for all of us who feel this way at some time or another, particularly as we suffer from this condition that robs us of future dreams, or how you specifically may be having a serious crisis.

In general, I know that chemicals are just as responsible for how you feel emotion as they are for how we move. I can't feel the emotions that I know i should be feeling. I still voice that i am happy about something, or scared, or worried, but i don't feel it. This is troubling but maybe a blessing at this point. I don't know the answer of course, which is where faith comes in.

you have a gift that touches others.