Yes, I can imagine.

But, you have to understand that it is not you they don't believe. what they find hard to believe is that rare is not impossible and unusual can exist. and that patients are not "boxes" but complex human beings.

It has nothing to do with you. It has to do with them being unable to think out of the box. with them using their disbelief as a way of hiding their ignorance and arrogance. hiding their fear from facing the unknown and their limitations as the well as the limitations of their profession.

The only thing you can do, is try to diminish as much as possible your emotional response to all of this. As it can only serve as fuel for their fire, as proof for their unsubstantiated ideas.

I have found quite a few times (as ridiculous as it may seem) that physicians could understand my emotional response to my illness, but not my emotional response to their behavior (which was sometimes as bad as the illness itself).

But, this is mostly because they truly have no insight into what they are doing. They think they are honest when they are deceptive. they think they are compassionate when they are actually being paternalistic. they think they address your fear and concerns, when they don't even listen to what they are. They think they have done enough for you, when they convinced you to trust them and receive treatment, and they don't think they have any responsibility for the consequences of this treatment. they are sure they did good when in fact they did much more harm.

So, its not you they don't trust, but themselves and their ability to see what is in front of their eyes, and trust their senses, without the need for unreasonable explanations for what they can't understand. They don't trust themselves to stand in front of the mirror and see who they really are without all the covers they put on themselves-their title, their so-called experience and knowledge, the artificial pedestals that put them way above their "patients"-the people that come to them for help and they automatically assume can have no insight or understanding to what they experience on a daily basis.

And you just have to keep on searching until you find those that aren't like that.