thank you both. mood is wavering today.... switch from melancholy to angry or a blend. so i appreciate your both stopping by on me. i have been posting so selfishly lately too. i am trying to catch up a bit. today is a holiday i will try to make the rounds a little. (specially now that i'm kinda not like doing a brainsurf thing any more.)

do not have the high energy any more. i feel pretty "normalish" today as that goes. my brain races sometimes but not always. i haven't hadn the blocking spells. or the language fusion spells either in a bit. (i speak several languages and i was having these spells, esp in big crowds like in a commute, where, i couldn't "tell" what lnaguage was being spone around me - not focus on one or another or mentally assume.... result - all i could hear were bunches and bunches of people blabbering senseless syllables all around me. brief spells, but very weird.

i just dosed out might meds higher. looks like i might have to "put them back" whatever. it might be better taking more during the week though - Depakote is one of the better drugs for handling mixed sx or rapid cycling, whichever it is.