I am sorry that your life is having such trouble. I have family trouble too. I wish your wife would treat you more kindly. Sometimes a real hug with lots of feeling behind it does wonders. You need her comfort, and i sure hope you continue to ask her kindly for her to be close to you. I feel awful about not working too, as people sometimes look down on you for being disabled. Now that I am a non- working member, I am overlooked by my own family, just a burden. I am sending you a hug this day, just to let you know there is another human that cares. ginnie