I just cant do this anymore...Im a shell of myself....I feel like a wolf caught in a trap...Im a burden to everyone....theres nothing left to try...all its doing is taking taking and taking some more...whats the point....I have nothing left to contribute....nothing left to prove as I become more and more irrelevent to my so called friends, family and anyone else...the fight is over for me...I lost my brother and I just lost my mother....and my poor wife has a huge battle going on with her own health problems..She has stopped going to the doctor to take care of me as I watch her hands start to deform from RA...She wont listen and all Im doing is getting worse fast....pretty close to full body with flares coming closer and closer together....its now affecting my inner organs..maybe i shouldnt write this here but i know that all of you would maybe understand..I just dont know how some of you make it as far as you do...I just dont have it in me... im sorry