bobby, I too have the concern for our gal

Waves,
As a mom with one of my kids, or my peeps, I would worry it is a crutch that could back fire or fall out from under.

waves, you may think the alcohol is taking the edge off, but it is replacing your rational thoughts process that you need to rely on right now.

I would find something else that vents it out, or eases. I rant, to no one....
let it come out in tears instead of penting up, and then pick up my boot straps and put them on ready to face that which challenges me.

You already are questioning the reason and effect, but do you accept the results?
I do not want you hurt in your potential to teach by this agency to act on detecting alcohol. They would put that in a discharge, and it will be in your record. Don't give them that ammunition.

think of all the people you are going to help teach one day if you saw this issue in a student and treat yourself with as much proactive advice.

Don't add fuel to this mans fire. He is just waiting and acting nice. Be like our Marines have a saying.
Be the best you can be.
Hugs
di