So sorry you are feeling this way, Krank.

I can totally relate. I have had RSD since I was 12 years old (now 16) and it is almost full body. I get depressed really easily and it has been a LOT worse then normal lately. Mums now had to lock my pain meds away and only give me what I need as I have been that depressed that I have wanted to end my life several times in the last few weeks / months. I'm now seeing a Psychologist for that and have 2 hospital appointments this week. I've been told that I may need anti-depressants ... not want I want but I seriously need to get out of this depression and fast!

Like you, I think my main problem is that I think of my past and how good it used to be and now look at my new life and remember how much I miss the old days. Nearly all of my friends left me when they found out I had RSD and couldn't do most things they could. That hurt me more than everything and I have spent the last 3 years sat in the house mostly. I have a boyfriend and he's been a great support. Been with me over a year and goes to hospital appointments with me so I think he understands some things. That helps a lot and I feel like I can tell him anything. Just last night I was crying because I missed my old life, going out socialising etc. He comforted me and told me that he would stick by me no matter what. I always get worried and think that he'll get sick of me and leave so it's nice to hear that he wont.

Please don't do anything stupid! Trust me I know how easier said than done it is! I've been undergoing Psychological support and thats helped me realise that I shouldn't do anything stupid as it would put my family (especially mum) through pure h*ll. I don't think I could cope with putting her through something so horrific. Don't get me wrong, I still am depressed but it's helped channel my thoughts a bit.

As the others have said, there IS hope. I know many times it doesn't feel like it but there is. New medicines etc that may help.

I think anyone with a chronic pain condition / illness will go through this depression at some stage. It's normal to mourn your past life etc. Please speak to your doctor and see if theres anything he can suggest.

Take care and know we are always here if you want to talk.

Alison