Its just so hard. I mean if I leave now, I can make it to KY by the time the movie gets out and I can follow her home and dispose of her body with just enough time to make it back here in time for my infusion tomorrow. But I don't think I will have the energy to drive back. Sheesh!

No, I have not had contact with the bio. She did send the man a friend request and an email on facebook of course...what is with the crazy peple on there?? He did not respond to either. Unless it concerns DD he is staying out of it.

I honestly think he contacting DD was more a matter of convenience as DD lives in the same neighborhood as this woman's mother. And they are now in the same town. I do not think she has tried contacting the other children she has not seen in however many years. They live with their father in VA. About 30 miles from our house. And I have to question if DD had come to live here last summer, if she would have bothered contacting her.

She seems very jealous of my relationship with DD, and rightfully so as we have a relationship.

DD did say the other day that she at least deserves a second chance. It was so hard for me to not tell her the only thing this woman deserves is a kick in the butt and a one way ticket back to HE?? where she came from.

Her mother is already pushing for a second date in mid april and they haven't een seen each other yet. I am just so scared because I see DD having so much hope, and I see her struggling with her feelings or lack thereof. She feels guilty for not feeling a love for hermom that she thinks should be there and I have to tell her that is perfectly normal.

And I have to hold her hand and I have to be here to pick up the pieces when her mother shatter her heart again. Its been so hard the last 4 years watching this child grow into a little woman and seeing her heart broken because her real mom wasn't there. We have become very close over the years and this is driving me insane.