thank you Mari.

yes i am just trying to hold onto the ropes. feel so ... just wanna quit but unless it's push come to shove and they shove me, i am going to try and plod plod some more.

they put out new bus schedules this weekened effective monday so i spent bunches of time doing that, plus i made crepes... did not job hunt. these evenings am going to gather some internet addresses to send to for first start though. and tonight wrap up/translate the letter i remember writing.

and take my meds, which are dispensed out through tuesday (no i don't think more benzo would help - i just increased it from 1.5 to 2 - i think that's plenty for now, it even take a couple weeks just for steady state). it breaks down to lorazepam for about its 25% worth so you get a double round there, and i do take lorazepam on the ever-more-various occasions i think it might help.

am also trying to remember my vitamins. b vitamins will help right now.

~ waves ~