Blast it. Yesterday I wondered if something was going on. Today it is for sure. I waited till I had hydrocodone in me to take it yet I ended up with explosive diareah. Had some much milder yesterday. I finally had to get some mestinon in me as my body had become heavy and breathing was down some. It went fast when I tried to talk to my daughter.

Now that much of the recerts are done I need to go back to my new neuro and press for the lomotil. Here is hoping for a quieter week, a good week. I find it is hard for me to bring up subjects with my new neuro. I admit I am afraid to lose him. I am afraid the tide will change. I know it may seem hard to believe but before this past 2 years I was not fearful like this. I remember a coworker saying to me once putting a brick wall in front of me would be useless. My strong determination lives but there is a strong level of fear that affects me. I know that consistanncy with more than one doctor would help that. I have my pulmonologist but need another core doc to be there. I think it maybe this neuro will work out. It will take some time.

Annie59