I don't know how well I cope...

I like to convince myself that things aren't really happening, so now I keep thinking I imagined it, or mistook something else for blood, and all the tests will turn out fine and I'll be embarrassed I even went to the doctor.... But when I go over it in my head, I know it was blood. Pretty unmistakable. And it happened 5-6 times yesterday.

So, I'll just keep going back and forth like this until I know more.

In the meantime, I'm afraid of going to the bathroom and having it happen again.