I have to talk about a small sucess I had - yesterday I played with me kids. I said "to *%&% with it" and got in and wrestled with them - they were all gentle with me, and had a pillow fight and I tickled my twelve year old til he begged me to stop. it was great. And I did not hit an 11 or 12 out 10 on the pain scale which is what normally happens if I move alot. I got to about a 9 and stayed there for the rest of the evening which is totally amazing! I did wake up at a 7 though. Normally I wake up at a 2-4. It is real hard to move my arms and fingers this morning but I had to shre how good I felt to play wit hmy kids.

Sorry if I ramble alot in this thread - but I kinda need an outlet, peole don't listen to me very well. I notice in all of my relationsihps I am th elistener and whe i try to talk to them the ydont listen back very well. gotta go getttng worse