I just heard from the hospital, they have an anesthesia girl just for me. She was very sweet. Told me about 10% of folks dont behave normally to medications normally used to knock folks down for procedures like colonoscopies, and other light procedures. She was very reassuring and kind. She had read the notes of the nurses from the last two scans and told me it was actually less dangerous to let her knock me down, than it was to allow them to keep pumping with me the amount of drugs they have been using. I like her already. She assures me that she will keep me comfy and if not, she will knock me completely out. no struggle, no worry, she will not allow me to cry thru yet another MRI.

I have them so often because I have a brain tumor that hasnt done a thing in years, and because of the MS. They normally want one every 6 months where I go, but I have complained and switched to once a year. They keep telling me about the need to watch this brain tumor, but its so stressful. If this new girl does a great job I wont mind going again, but if I have to stress, and cry all the way thru it while they pump me full of stuff that is only adding to my nausea, its not worth it.

So, I do feel some better that the anesthesia girl called me and was so kind. She told me she is in that 10% of folks that dont behave normally to drugs, so she really did understand, its not about trying to get high off the stuff, its about truly not feeling what they are giving me. Either way she promises to catch me. I was impressed that she saw I had phlebitis 2x after, and she assures me that SHE will push the GAD dye by hand. The machine is quick and rough and it can upset delicate veins. That made me happy.

So, say a little prayer for me. Im gonna need to borrow some courage. My arrival time is 1pm because I have horrible veins and they need an ultrasound to stick me, and then my scan is 2:30. so, keep good thoughts.