I am freaking out!! 12 more days and this 2 yr fight will finally be over. My lawyer seems competent enough but he has not prepared me for any of it other than going over my medical records. I have no idea what to expect. I have no idea what questions will be asked.

I know it will be ok. I know it is a slam dunk case, but I am really stressing over it right now.

The fact that the stress has triggered the "manic" side of me is not helping. I swear to you after an hour of discussing all of the crazy things going on in my head, my shrink told me i need a time-out. She told me to run away to a place that allows me to relax.

Of course, the trip to the beach I decided on looks like it is not happening. It is going to be cold and rainy all weekend. Just my luck.

On the plus side, this SSDI thing will son be over. That has been the biggest stressor aside from MS. Once all is said and done I think I will be able to learn to relax again.