1100 pages of medical records and counting. all of the ssdi requested bs paperwork has been filed appropriately along with my letter which includes how my days typically flow. Statement from PCP, Neuro, and psychologist all stating I am not to return to work because I am physically unable and I have a list of incurable diseases along with proven physical disability.

It will be ok. And I am dragging my mom with me so that she may testify to the pain and emotional and physical disability.

I just wish I knew what was going to be asked of me. I wish I knew what the state rep had to say so that I may offer a counter.

I think the insanity is holding me together right now. I think once it is finally over the floodgates will open and I will breakdown.

Between the hearing, and the kids, and everyone being sick, and the relationship issues with the man and with my family, and the DD's mom showing up, and the neighbors kids practically living at my house...

It's just a LOT to deal with all at one time.

OK, I am going to sit and breathe and visit the ocean in my head.