I had a doctor tell me if I was hungry enough I could work! Then he put me on complete rest for four weeks an massage therapy. I don,'t know maybe he was just testing me.

Stress is a lot. Do you just have time when you and all around you are quiet? I don't know if you are still working, but just going to work is too much stress sometimes. It is amazing how much we don't think is stress but it is. Pain is one thing, but expecting unreasonable things
from your body and mind complicates everything. Cut everything out of you life, ok except breathing, and then list the priority with which you
would add them back. Try only adding relationships, no activities. So
much we accept as necessary when you are struggling like you are now
need to be put on the 'not necessary' list, even if temporarily. My Doc
says if it causes pain, don't do it. Now that is a hard statement. It has taken me 6 Months almost to get what he is saying. I'm not sleeping in bed, I'm not wearing socks, I'm limiting the number of steps I take in a day. If I go over the limit I am willing to pay the price.

Plus remember one of the most wonderful pain killer's in our tool box is distraction. A long conversation with a friend, a great movie, a game of scrabble, fighting with some 'angry birds', showing my granddaughters how to make jewelry or greeting cards, sending a note and a card to someone who has lost a close friend or family member.

Keep up your search, but take some time to quiet yourself, those neurons want to keep you going.

And don't be too stubborn to at least consider what they say, but wait until you are home and can think clearly. I try to not agree to anything in the office.

To a quiet day od mercy and grace,
GramE