hi
i think you need a buffer between you and your sister. it sounds as if she means well but her presentation stinks big time. nobody likes to feel threatened bipolar or not. did you get anything out of the parenting class or was it a waste? we as bipolars have a lot of triggers and your sister sounds like a big one. I didn't get along with my sister for most of our lives and then when i got to be in my sixties yes sixties, i had a strong need to have a sister and i called her up crying. She can't deal with my bipolar and didn't know i was bipolar. Now she is finally a fair weather sister. I am coming from that direction. I cut her off for so many years. It never worked. i don't know if that helps or not.
a lot of us think of suicide at times but we know the feelings pass and eventually we feel better and you have your two little ones who you don't want to leave that legacy to. it is better to seek all the help and support you can get. this forum is great. you can vent and vent and ask for help and don't have to worry if you are not able to help others. a therapist, the right therapist, can really help.. i don't know if you are on medications. they don't solve the problems but they lessen the symptoms.
glad you joined the forum
bobby
we cross posted. i wonder if your psychologist is adequate