There are roads in life we must travel, we don't choose them. And we can't choose to turn off of them. We travel them with as much grace and mercy as God provides. God determines the beginning and the end. He is the author and finisher. What we determine is the quality of those days left to us. Dearest Kajunbutterfly, you can determine the quality of love, kindness, companionship, opportunity for her to express her thoughts, many things to help her days the same way those things help you when you are feeling bad. And in doing so, when God determines He is going to call her home you will have no regrets over missing any of those opportunities you had in spending with your mother. Many of us just get a call saying 'she's gone'. You have the privilege of sitting in the waiting room of heaven with her. What an honor and a privilege you have been granted. Hold her hand at least once for me, and try to remember you are on hallowed ground.

Don't let your guilt steal your time with her.

May God's ministering Angels surround your home inside and out offering you both comfort. Only God knows the number of her days, make the most of those she has with you!