that you are going thru a BIG case of WHAT IF's/IF ONLY's.

What does your gut instinct tell you? Hasn't it been pretty much on track all along? Go with that and well, if they say SURGERY NOW well, you can always beg off time to 'consider', ponder or whatever.

Heck, you have been thru a food processor of sorts thruout the whole diagnosis, treatment, surgery thing, then got mugged w/the mis-med aspect that surely wasn't anticipated.

All I could add to it is, well, FRUITCAKES! I've loose screws IN ME! I WANT THEM ATTACHED AND WORKING! But, that's my mere human [not a medico] opinions. I really don't think mortals count in such matters..Wish they did?

Still and all Hugs and Fuzzies! for the Duration ! - j