I am so very sorry that you have had to go through all of this. It is really a tragedy that so many people have had to go through all of these things with doctors...isn't the pain bad enough? You have found a really good group of people here. I have left a few rambling vents on here when I have been frustrated (which has been quite often lately). Everyone is very supportive and helpful. If you need anything or have any questions or even just want to vent...please do. I know how much it helps to just have people to talk to who get it.