Hi Ada,
1st I would like to say "no, you are not crazy" just depressed. It is natural to feel this way when you struggle with pain everyday. I would also like to say (in caring way) STOP putting on a front all of the time, that is why people "may think your fine". You need somebody to talk to. You are no where near alone in the depression department. I have had depression/anxiety for years HOWEVER since all of my hand surgeries & now CRPS my shrink states that "anybody in chronic physical pain will become depressed" I heard her mention the word "co morbid" or something like that. In my case, I had always been a functioning depressed person until all of the surgeries & chronic pain. Now the mental part of me is drained. Do I have better days? Sure, but nowhere near what my old better days were. I see a (i call her shrink in a loving way) every month, take medication's regularly and still have bad days.

PLEASE find a professional in your area that works with depression, primary care doc's are not the one stop shop when it comes to brain and minds. Specialists are where it is at, so please, do not deprive yourself of better days any longer!!

always here if you would like to pm me!!
Angela