I have a long history of Major depression with many attempts to "take care of" my misery. Since the RSD the depression has intesified and currently the have added "treatment resistant" to my diagnoses. Every day can be a desperate struggle. I am much better off if I am busy and focused on others but generally I pay for this with increased pain. My PCP is also a good family friend for many years, he is my lifeline. I also have a therapist, se is helping some but lately her comments on "how wonderful" I look to her makes me want to snatch her bald at times. I have found my mask is well and truely fixed, if I let it slip questions are asked, issues are raised, things are generally not good.
So to sum it up you are not alone in your feelings or thoughts. We are all we truely have as noone else can understand where we are
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