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Originally Posted by Dmom3005
Waves
Even in my job were I love it. I have had days were I have cried
and cried too. I know its not the same. But sure wasn't easy to
see the same group of people months later.
For me that was what it was. Not just a weekend.
So please hang in there.
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thanks Donna,
i'm sorry about that. a whole group can be very intimidating. in this case yes it is different it is also 3-4 times a week and the rest of the time i'm still struggling... i fight tears a lot, before i get out. sometimes i cry at lunch time. it is really way too much.
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yeah he said don't be a hero if it gets unbearable walk away even if it costs money... on the other hand he said, if i can manage to get to end of contract it it might give me a boost - a sense of achievement. that's true too.
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I think that sounds like something I would want to hear. Plus it gives two options that are okay by pdoc standards.
Oh Waves, I wish I could give you as good an answer, but what ever happens tomorrow, we are with you in supportive caring thoughts. |
thank you. yes i think he was trying not to put pressure on me, but also remind me that if i did have the strength to get through, it would not go unrewarded. it is helpful to think of both alternatives. i'm supposed to give a month's notice but if i feel i can't continue, i think i will give 2 weeks notice - that "should" basically mean i work for free for 2 weeks... better than having to PAY them a month of GROSS earnings, where the taxes have already been paid to the state, i don't know if it works that way. we are 1/3 way through april. 8/9 of the way through to end of contract.
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Even if you did not have cycles, it could be happening to anyone, and that anyone would feel just like you do now, or else they would be hardened.
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yeah, that other woman in there, the witch coordinator, acts hardened. i wonder if someone without cycles could manage better in there. my boss does have a reputation as a looney - my predecessor left because he was denied a transfer to another group, away from my boss.
but the witchwoman does not... at least i have not talked to ppl who have worked with her.
it is hard, my boss and the witch are the only two ppl in my office, and they won't even exchange pleasantries with me, even if they are goofing off and 'shooting the ... manure' themselves. if i reply to something they say, they play deaf or otherwise refuse to engage. then i feel invisible. it is hard to feel so invisible all day. does anyone remember the buffy episode where there was the girl noone ever noticed and she started to become physically invisible and then frighten ppl?
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You are sweet, and like to please people.
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well my goodness i can be mean too, but i am not a mean person in a profound way. overall i do like ppl around me to be happy and to help if i can. and if i have to do something as part of my job i do put my heart in it and care what the result will be.
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Working were you feel it is hostile, and it seems it is for sure.....makes for a crappy job even too "Lady Diana". A princess with all that pressure and she just wanted to be appreciated and not dictated.
Your a real Lady.
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thanks Di.... and hat's off to Lady Di (you know who you are
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~ waves ~ my thinking cap goes on and off... regarding how to go about the teaching search, maybe for interim jobs. i feel so relieved i can stay home today.