I couldn't help but feel for you and after trying to think of what to say... I just decided to write something. Crying does seem to help relieve emotional stresses, such as grief and sorrow. The Bible contains numerous examples of men and women—including Jesus Christ himself—who shed tears. (Luke 19:41; John 11:33-35) So in coping with such emotional stresses as grief, a helpful piece of advice may be: Don’t hold back those tears!
Why are you so distressed?

Although there is “a time to weep and a time to laugh,” who does not prefer the latter to the former? (Ecclesiastes 3:4) Sad to say, we live in a world that primarily gives us reasons for weeping. Depressing news dominates the media.
I look forward to when all forms of sickness and suffering, as well as even death itself, will cease to be!!! (Isaiah 33:24; Revelation 21:3,*4)
That helps me in times of sadness... I hope it can you too