Helen,
We are family here, and you don't ever have to apologize for whining or complaining. You are always so brave, but I'm sure there are times when things seem overwhelming. There's always a listening ear or supportive shoulder (virtual, anyway!) here, whenever you need one, ok?
I wish your news had been better. I have been through the rounds with pain treatments, so if you have any questions or I can be of help in any way, send me a PM, OK? I will be getting a trial spinal cord stimulator on the 29th to relieve TOS and RSD pain in the hands, arms and underarm areas, if it helps at least 50% a permanent unit will be implanted.
(((hugs)))
beth