Hi Axelle
Good advice from my friends above!
So... we hurt people we love... what can we do about that...
We can apologize.
We can make excuses... but perhaps, we should turn those excuses into explanations... There's a difference, you know.
Explanation... I was overtired, I didn't eat right, I went off my meds, I thought I could handle it myself... I was getting my period, I have a cold...
With the explanation comes knowledge... for both you and those you affect.
It, in no way, excuses what happened to cause hurt.
You will learn to understand how your personal situations exacerbate your illness... begin to recognize the signals - the debilitating loss of rationalization...
Its not easy... it takes a ton of exhausting personal work.
And its all worth it in the long run...