Hi mari, thanks for the reply! Actually i've been to see my doc today and she effectively change the meds. I should feel better but i'm not! My sis came with me and we had a big fight in front of the doc! She acused me of not eating not taking my meds correctly which is not totally false coz i've been given new responsibilities at my job and had to work a lot having less time for myself! It's not the fact that she said this which hurt me. It's the fact that she waited till we were in front of the doc! We could have discussed it together and find a way out! It hurt me so much that i started crying like a kid....IN FRONT OF THE DOC! I feel sometime that my own family don't understand me! In my country actually to suffer from bipolar illness is not very common! How did your family react when they came to know you suffer from bipolar illness?