Hi Axelle.

Many of us have felt they way you said. Keep talking to us.

There is also another group here at Neurotalk you might want to visit... that would be the SOS forum (Survivors of Suicide) ... many folks whose lives have been touched by suicides, whether desired, attempted, completed, or contemplated...
Survivors of Suicide Forum

Tell us about the pain. What kind of pain do you have?

(((hugs))) hang in there

~ waves ~