Oh Axel..there are so many times that I feel the exact same way you do...ihave been hospitalized twice due to wanting to...you know....but let me tell you...I am so glad i was hospitalized!!! Now I have a place to turn just in case. It opened my family's eyes so they can help me in my really hard times. You have so many people on here that truly care about how you feel. We will talk you through it....I am new on this forum, but have been on Neuro Talk for a few years....and believe me, the support is the same great family feeling in all the groups on here. I know I sound like a dork, but just give us a chance...everyone has helped me with my issues.
Pardon my nerdy-ness everyone.