My dear singer friend I read your message last night but the only lamp I had in my bedroom broke and I couldnt see the keyboard to type !! argh... yeterday was one of those days that definetely nothing could go ok...

Thanks for your message. It helped me a lot to read it. Today I just feel empty... Not as sad as yesterday, but I still wish I wasnt here...
I simply dont like my life as it is.

It is weird because at the same time I feel Im wasting my time at this life...

Doody Im so tired of this monster... I actually had to scream last night "Leave me alone stupid feeling!" I was so tired... all my family went to have meal in a chinese resto and I couldnt go because I was so depressed, crying and wanting to die... stupidity.

I do think I will start a journal... somtimes I do need to write, write and write...