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Originally Posted by Axelle
Hi mari, thanks for the reply! Actually i've been to see my doc today and she effectively change the meds. I should feel better but i'm not! My sis came with me and we had a big fight in front of the doc! She acused me of not eating not taking my meds correctly which is not totally false coz i've been given new responsibilities at my job and had to work a lot having less time for myself! It's not the fact that she said this which hurt me. It's the fact that she waited till we were in front of the doc! We could have discussed it together and find a way out! It hurt me so much that i started crying like a kid....IN FRONT OF THE DOC! I feel sometime that my own family don't understand me! In my country actually to suffer from bipolar illness is not very common! How did your family react when they came to know you suffer from bipolar illness?
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My family seems to want to take control. If I'm having a bad time and they know about it, they feel out of control and want to take over. It sounds like that is what happened at your appointment. I can certainly understand why you would be upset with her. Sometimes my family has gotten angry with me and blamed me. It was hard for me to accept an illness that has a stigma attached to it. The first step for me was to accept that if I wanted to live a normal life, I would need good medical care. The second thing I did was to not hang around family much. As much as they love me and I love them, family for me can cause me to feel off balance. I have developed outside friendships and activities to sustain me. None of this happened in a short period of time. I had to figure this out over the years. One thing I won't allow is for my family to put me down with out calmly and assertively responding to something that puts me in a "role" that fits their idea of me. In this country a doctor appointment is a private thing and unless you want someone there, I would go alone. I will say this though, it's important to take medicine and if it isn't working for you and your doctor isn't responsive, get another doctor. I did this and it's wonderful to have a doctor that will listen and give you choices. Best of luck to you.