"Its a marathon, not a sprint"

I keep telling myself this. And I have seen improvements but its still hard coming to terms with the fact that you are no longer you.

I use to work with children. It was my passion to teach and reach kids. People told me all the time how patient I was and that they could never do what I did.

Now I'm known for having a short fuse. My family says I have no yellow light. Its all green then with no warning I go red.

I say things that are harsh and have no filter. Then someone will point out how mean it was and I feel bad and am ashamed.

This isn't how I view myself but I guess Its who I am now.