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Old 04-25-2011, 04:00 PM
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My feet feel like they are in vice grips -- from side to side and top to bottom -- and feel like they are broken when I try to walk sometimes.
My hands and arms go numb at random times throughout the day.
I get lightheaded, fuzzy-headed, and easily knocked off track of what I am doing and thinking.
I never know if my bladder or bowels are going to work.

But sometimes the emotional pain is the worst . . . the not "being" there when my partner needs me, the destroyed moments where there could be intimacy, the loss of patience with myself and others . . . and the wondering if I will ever be able to look forward to anything again. Oh, and the having many more bad days than good . . . I can not seem to plan anything anymore without having a "back-out" plan . . .
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