You're not wrong to feel this way...I imagine most of us do from time to time (if not most of the time). I am so sorry that you are going through this right now. I know how much it helps to just vent sometimes (I've certainly done it myself a number of times). I think we all wish we could just have our lives back. It's great when we have supportive people in our lives, but if you're like me you don't want to make the relationship all about the pain so it helps to have others to talk to who understand.

I hope you feel better soon and that the docs are able to find something to give you some relief. I'm not a fan of pills myself...but they are a necessary part of dealing with this condition. You're in my thoughts.