Hi I am sorry for your pain. I can relate to how you feel. I do feel as the time passes the feelings,emotions,coping change. Sometimes I see to it goes in phases as well. I can't imagine how hard it is to be a mom through a condition like this. I hope you also have family and friends that can help. I think it is a good idea to see someone for the mental side of things. My pain doctor said how someone can't be in pain for so long and it not have an impact mentally. I know i waited too long to go and see someone. Right now I am going through a bad time with pain and mentally again but I try to take 1
day at a time. On the real bad days just doing what I can to make it through in the best way mentally and physically. You never know what treatment or med will help in the future so I try to remain to hope in that and not focus on the fears of what could happen bad. This is easier said then done of course.
Hang in there and feel better. Hey may I ask where you live? You mentioned the ghecko and I am in FL and we have those which get in the house and creep me out. Ick.