Hi. Sorry to hear what you have been through. I can tell you that suicide is not the answer. My son has been doing this for 9 years (threatening, checking into psych wards, checking himself out), He has done this as recently as one week ago. It really affects a family, I can tell you that.

You have so much on your plate, I am so sorry for you.

Have you ever gone to groups and entered into discussions with other people going through the same thing? I gather that you must have given your diagnosis. My son refuses to go to any groups saying they are BORING.

Sometimes boring and quiet is GOOD.

I can only wish you well and hope you work things out.

Take care of yourself