I don't know what I could be doing that's so wrong but it has to be something.
I firmly believe I am in another flare. Symptoms have come back and I have been monitoring them, started Saturday, and was hoping they would be gone by today and they are not. So I am thinking this is NOT a pseudo and that it's another flare. BUT HOW?!?!
I have been taking those forsaken shots on time, even though they make me feel like dog crap.
Alcohol makes me deathly ill now so I haven't drank since '09.
I have reduced my hours at work to TEN hours A WEEK. (who can live on that, really?)
I'm trying to keep stress far away from me so I haven't been talking to my family members recently.
If I start feeling drained I either nap or lay down and rest my body.
I haven't been doing as many chores or activities.
I just don't get it
What could I possibly be doing to cause another flare?
We are in the fifth month of this year and this (if it is a flare like I am thinking) will be my FOURTH flare. I'm so close to throwing that Rebif away. What's the point in taking a drug that they don't know if it's going to work and is damaging my liver and making me ill 3x a week, if it's not going to keep these flares away from me?
I don't do anything anymore. I quit my serving job because I saw that this disease was going to break me down real quick if I continued, I don't party, I can't stay awake (EVEN AT an $11 MOVIE THAT I HAVE BEEN DYING TO SEE), I can't work 40 hours (apparently it doesn't even want me working 4 hours), I can't wash the dishes and sweep the floor in one round, have to take 20 minute breaks in between, so it takes forever to get simple chores accomplished. I have changed so much of my life to satisfy this whiney lil ***** known as MS and it won't leave me alone.
Seriously. What am I doing wrong?