And Michael was my only son, my first born and I loved him dearly. Our last words to each other were "I love you"...and it didn't stop him from putting that gun in his mouth.

Parents are supposed to protect their children...and they are always our children no matter the age. I couldn't prevent him doing this to himself...and you couldn't prevent your brother from doing it either.

It hurts...it's a crushing blow but you were not responsibile for his act just as I was not responsible for Michaels. But I hear you..I do understand my friend...just keep on keeping on....remember to breath,,,deeply.

And...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nxuOa...eature=related