Made the call to my pdoc, felt like an idiot. We talked and talked about acceptance and denial. Not sure if we got anywhere. She said some hurtful things and I’m not so sure I can trust her anymore. But I know I need the meds. Can’t function without them so that’s a step right? No it’s not a step it’s a slap in the face, a reality check.

I picked up my scripts at 8PM and just started all over again. Pill after pill, one for up, one for down, one for in between. I can’t function, can’t sleep, can’t stop. Hope they kick in soon.

Thanks for asking about me Mari. I’ll be fine, just need sleep and quiet time. Need to shut it all down and stop the head thing.