Dear Me BP?,
Sleep and quiet time sound good.

Be gentle on yourself. You did the right thing by reaching the pdoc Monday AM.
-->People often go through stages of acceptance.
-->Also they go through stages of mourning their old lives and the plans that they used to have for the pre-bipolar lives. I think that the mourning process was a bigger deal for me than the acceptance.

Acceptance was easy. I was happy to hear a name/dx put to my feelings and happy to hear that meds could probably help.

But I was sad about not having the future I though I was going to have. The bp kind of mucked it up.

But on nights like tonight I realize that I am not missing anything by being bp. Sure, I dislike the side effects. But that is ok and I can manage.

All we have to do is find moments when we feel ok and that we can manage.

I hope you are managing.

Take care.
Mari