Hi Pooh

14 years of this pain I take my hat off to you! i have been just over 3 years and I was only able to return to work for a short stint last year but have been out again since last august, it is devasting when we realise we can no longer do what we were once great at! a few weeks ago my dr told me I would probably never be able to do my old job again ( 3 years of rsd) I was very down for days and reacted by taking all my 'work clothes' out of my wardrobe and putting them up in the attic/ being honest I am still very sad about it as my job was part of my 'identity' I think this added to my feelings of well if i cant work what can i do ? I was always the 'bread winner' in this house so the strain financially is another burden we carry. it is hard and my heart goes out to you at this time. i do hope the rest from doing a job as physically demanding as you do will make the pain calm down for you j