Welcome aerobeth! You've come to the right place for understanding and support.

Sorry for all you've been through. Its hard to have a sunny disposition when you feel so lousy, I know.

But its also a good idea to be honest when posting (even if its depressing), so you can get some honest feedback from others who may have gone through something similar.

I hope you'll stick around and let us get to know you better. Here's a gentle "feel better" hug for you.