"I fear I am losing my will to live. All I want to do is go to bed.

Am I missing something? "

unfortunately and fortunately the will to live is stamped into our soul. Sometimes we need to hit rock bottom and stay there for a long time before hope jolts us into reality.
whats the worst that can happen? If you cant work and cannot eat then steal food from the supermarket ,if you get caught you go to jail , free rent, free food, free gym, lots of friends (low risk type), not sure about meds though?

see aint that bad yet hay?