Like NurseNancy I pushed myself to work until I couldn't do it any more. I felt better after quitting, although it took some time. But I know how "thin" life is when you lose a career that was meaningful. I had a husband then, though, so I had something to live for, and we did some traveling. The stress that finally "got" me was when they put in a new rug and rug pad which was toxic. My brain went dead, not a helpful condition for a teacher. I quit the next day...I'd already taken time off over the years and I knew I could not keep doing it. The other teachers resented it. I looked healthy, they could not possibly understand a person whose neurological condition caused various forms of near-paralysis which came and went, and went completely away, and then came back....I had no dx, but got it right after that. Social worker who did cognitive function said I was suicidal. I do not think i was, just so so sad at giving up a career I was good at, and of course also having severe neurological impairment (got the private disability immediately, tested by physiatrist, took 3 years to get Social Security).

It is only natural, Doc, to have a very bad time working when you have MS, so don't criticize yourself. I don't say you ARE criticizing yourself, just don't fall into that pit.