Yes, unfortunately, that's what I thought would happen. I'm just overly tired and confused. I'm tired of not knowing how I'll be tomorrow. I'm tired of not knowing who's going to show up for the party. I'm tired of all the side effects, the nausea the shakes. I just thought it would be easier. Yes, I'm hurt but she's right. But she also doesn't understand, no one understands. I'm not angry Wendy. I just don't know how I feel. I must say that I admire you all for being able to open up here and let things out. I hold it in, dwell on it and let it consume me.