Hi, Me BP,
This is a process. In my case I needed
1) alot of patience and strength,
2) alot of faith that I could get through it,
3) alot of faith that my pdoc would help me get through it,
4) alot of faith that this work would be worth it someday,
5) belief that I was worth it.
It worked. I did get better.
When I was first dx'd I needed 4 or 5 years to find the right meds. This was in the late 80s/early 90s. I think med trails take less time now.
Hold on. You are worth it.
Your pdoc can help you if you help her.
Remember that it is ok to have temporary set backs and feel bad. But try to keep in mind that it gets better enventually/ in the long run.
Mari