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I'm sorry for what has happened in the past. Give it a chance? Sometimes things really do change and work for good.
You said: "I feel that without mods I am much safer because ordinary people like me tend to like me. I like people."
The mods ARE ordinary people just like you.

They're/we're members.
KD