hi hope--
Just wanted to offer my support, and say that I have been there too. I am in a much better place now. But I have come to the realization that my happiness is my responsibility. NO ONE can do it for you. It has to come from within. You have to realize on your own that in spite of your circumstances, you can give yourself a gift. The gift of living the healthiest, happiest life possible. You are ultimately in control of your own happiness. Yes, things others do and say can influence this state, but you and only you are in control of your emotions. Meds and counseling can help. But you have to take the first step yourself-do it for you. Don't let them win. I'm fighting it myself, everyday. And if I can do it. you can do it. I believe in you.

Peace, and love,
-Cgirl-